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Tales from the dark side a.k.a. Hormonal Helen

Well! I tend to mainly share ‘the good stuff’ ;o) But, while this ends, ‘Good’ it starts out yucky …

I got to make use of my 12 Step Program ‘amends step’ as well as Good Hearted-Living ‘Forgiveness and Kindness’ – today.

Besides being HA HA Helen, I have also been Hollywood Helen (when I sing and act), Highlighted Helen when I’m having an AH HA! moment, Healthy Helen, when I’m making positive strides with healthy eating, etc.

Well – just before the December Holidays (however you celebrate) – I had stopped in to my local Olive Garden Restaurant. It just happened to be a bit busy and the service was slow. The awkward thing is, they ‘know’ me there – mainly as a pleasant soul.
But – this particular time – being into Menopause…
I had become…
no – not a super hero – but
HORMONAL Helen! Needless to say – I did not handle myself well. I couldn’t seem to get out of the MODE of ‘making my point’ to the ‘pleasant but slow/inefficient’ ;o) server – that I was unpleased with her service.
She was trying her best to appease me and I just couldn’t ‘let it go’. Is that what menopause does to you?

Anyway – I left there feeling like crap – because I felt like such a foolish jerk. I certainly had the right to speak up about the service, but didn’t do it effectively. I thought: ‘Gheesh! I’ll never be able to go back in there, they know me and I just made a jerk of myself!’

Well! As ‘fate’ would have it, my younger sister had gotten me a Gift Card for… you guessed it – Olive Garden Restaurant! She laughed, after I told her my story and trying to now avoid the place. But – I took it as a sign I needed to ‘get back in there’ and work through it.

So – it’s been awhile, I hadn’t seen the server, but as luck would have it – TODAY – even though it’s a cold, rainy, gray day outside – there is sunshine back in my heart!

I happened to see the server when I stopped in for an appetizer. I called her over, addressed her by name and apologized. I told her she didn’t deserve to be treated the way I had treated her and I wanted to apologize. The great things with apologies is: both people benefit! She thanked me, said I didn’t have to do that, but it was nice that I had!

So – we had shared both forgiveness and kindness. I was feeling like a load was taken off. On the way home, I encountered a Big, Beautiful Blue Heron just taking off in flight near a marshy area.
I felt light as a feather and the bird was sending the same message back to me.

So, having let go of Hormonal Helen, I can once again be Ha Ha Helen in a Healthy, Highlighted way!

While I hate going through these ‘icky’ moments, they always give me something to share when I do my programs, to allow people to see that I’m not perfect, and show them how to practice Good Hearted Living.

‘Thanks for letting me share…’ ;o)
Ha Ha, Healthy, Highlighted Helen of LAFOLOT

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This entry was posted on Sunday, January 17th, 2010 at 5:13 pm and is filed under Highlighted Helen.